tropical_hermit (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} tropical_hermit) wrote,@ 2009-06-07 01:28:00 |
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full moon rising
crazy full moon energy abound! i began my day with this crazy nightmare of a tornado and telling adrian we have to leave and him not believing me... then, as i open the door and he sees the billowing, bustling, dark tempest he says, 'yeah, you're right! let's go.' i've saved my cat at least 10 times in various dreams this week.
i'm starting feel some stress.
i'm hoping it'll pass with the moon's phase. my day just continued in a stressful way: toothpaste in my hair, late, rain/floods, hectic/confusing worknight... but, really... i have nothing to complain about.
i'm just venting... but who wants to hear that? i certaintly don't! :D
eh. i'm feeling fragmented... like i have alllllllllllllll these things/details hovering and juggling around me and where i normally would be able to process them into priority/association... i'm barely remembering them. my world is a constant list that keeps growing my mind... this is what servers call a 'waitmare'... taking in soooooo much information and never being able to process it in any meaningful way eg you keep getting sat tables and can only take orders never reaching a computer to fulfill them. it's a most disturbing dream. but, i'm living it.
i met with a photographer today. she was really cool. she showed me her portfolio and i signed papers and such... truly we chatted like school girls with excitement. i really liked her! :) told her all about the various plans we have for the wedding... how it will probably not be very traditional... i forgot to tell her i invited another photographer as well. i probably should... when i told her that a guy contacted me to do an 'arty' film/video of the wedding she didn't look very happy. but, from my perspective... it's just people in the audience, hopefully no one will get in anyone's way... they'll be somewhat corralled. :P i mean, everyone has a different eye. i ony accepted 2 photographers. i don't think that should be an issue. everyone will be taking pictures anyway, you know?
but so i guess i agreed to the video... i am both excited and concerned simultaneously. he wanted to do 'interviews' with us separately on camera about how we met and whatever... then, i got this weird feeling like i suddenly agreed to a reality show or something. :O
i have alot to do... i'm going to take a huge posterboard and map out the days and write on them what has to be done on what day because i'm just loosing myself here... and i realize my mom always has a smaller version on her desk with bills/deadlines/dates/etc... and WOW... i guess, it makes things easier... just makes me realize how UNscheduled i am. i don't like the click of the clock... and yet, it's june 7th... this part always gives me small panic attacks.
ok. much love!
:)
crazy full moon energy abound! i began my day with this crazy nightmare of a tornado and telling adrian we have to leave and him not believing me... then, as i open the door and he sees the billowing, bustling, dark tempest he says, 'yeah, you're right! let's go.' i've saved my cat at least 10 times in various dreams this week.
i'm starting feel some stress.
i'm hoping it'll pass with the moon's phase. my day just continued in a stressful way: toothpaste in my hair, late, rain/floods, hectic/confusing worknight... but, really... i have nothing to complain about.
i'm just venting... but who wants to hear that? i certaintly don't! :D
eh. i'm feeling fragmented... like i have alllllllllllllll these things/details hovering and juggling around me and where i normally would be able to process them into priority/association... i'm barely remembering them. my world is a constant list that keeps growing my mind... this is what servers call a 'waitmare'... taking in soooooo much information and never being able to process it in any meaningful way eg you keep getting sat tables and can only take orders never reaching a computer to fulfill them. it's a most disturbing dream. but, i'm living it.
i met with a photographer today. she was really cool. she showed me her portfolio and i signed papers and such... truly we chatted like school girls with excitement. i really liked her! :) told her all about the various plans we have for the wedding... how it will probably not be very traditional... i forgot to tell her i invited another photographer as well. i probably should... when i told her that a guy contacted me to do an 'arty' film/video of the wedding she didn't look very happy. but, from my perspective... it's just people in the audience, hopefully no one will get in anyone's way... they'll be somewhat corralled. :P i mean, everyone has a different eye. i ony accepted 2 photographers. i don't think that should be an issue. everyone will be taking pictures anyway, you know?
but so i guess i agreed to the video... i am both excited and concerned simultaneously. he wanted to do 'interviews' with us separately on camera about how we met and whatever... then, i got this weird feeling like i suddenly agreed to a reality show or something. :O
i have alot to do... i'm going to take a huge posterboard and map out the days and write on them what has to be done on what day because i'm just loosing myself here... and i realize my mom always has a smaller version on her desk with bills/deadlines/dates/etc... and WOW... i guess, it makes things easier... just makes me realize how UNscheduled i am. i don't like the click of the clock... and yet, it's june 7th... this part always gives me small panic attacks.
ok. much love!
:)
