wedding thoughts

so, i'm married now!!! :D

and yes, that still excites me! :)

as the day neared, and my car broke down egging my phone to act up, the stress built upon itself. as i fixed each item a new detail would emerge much like that game with the squirrels that keep popping up everywhere as you punch them down with a padded club. and everyone kept waiting for me to explode in a bridezilla fashion. and i didn't. i got stupid. the decisions strangled my thoughts and left them where they were, dangling in my mind, in a hellraiser kind of field of view... dangling details threaded with hooks and chains... :o

and then my friends came into town... i forgot what i was supposed to do (thank goodness) and i just enjoyed them... maybe too much. i drank so much wine that felt hungover at the beginning of everyday for a week! and the only fix... more wine!

the day of the wedding, i awoke a few hours earlier than i wanted, hungover and helped my out of town friend get his car fixed. i was so tired and stressed out when i was drying my hair to get ready for the ceremony and soooo utterly tired... i closed my eyes as i dryed. i felt a rush of heat and sweat push out through my whole body and exhale through my skin. then, i felt better. who knew you could nap standing up doing something? i guess, i'm lucky i didn't discover that beforehand! :P

we were all running a bit late. the guys (yes, we saw each other the day of... even though i'm superstitious i choose not to believe in that superstition. we live together. it would be much worse NOT to see each other the day of with all the stuff that had to be done). the guys were building the altar in the backyard and getting it ready for transport and i was at the neighbors getting ready with my gals.

the photographer called me while i was getting ready. i botched that. i was supposed to get ready somewhere else but... hey, another detail, ok?! she was pissed. said no one was at the site. the guys bolted to get up there and when i arrived... they were in the parking lot drinking beers. everyone, including the bridesmaids were drinking beers. :) but i only cared that adrian was there and i couldn't get out of the car which i desperately wanted to do in that dress.

then, things happened very quickly.

i walked across the street to the wooden beach ramp and saw all my friends in their blue dresses and the pretty white bouquets in their hands. the videograhpers were shooting... i could hear the musicians over the dune and when i looked down i saw all of these people waiting for the ceremony to begin.

wow

i was... shocked dumb.

smiling, i look over and see this nice looking couple just a few feet away smiling at me. i thought, they must be friends of adrian's or my parent's. then, my mom talks to the woman and then turns to look at me. and in the moment my mom looked at me, me looking at the woman, i recognzied my oldest and dearest friend, alexa. how could i NOT recognize my best friend? i saw her a few months ago. i was in SUCH a state of shock/awe/happiness... then, i got emotional and began to tear. and my mom says, 'isn't that great that she's pregnant again?' and i had NO idea... she hadn't told me yet. and i was truly sooo happy.

and i walked down the wooden ramp to see the site unfold for the 1st time. the altar struck me first with adrian to the right and wendy behind in the middle. he made it out of wood, painted black and draped white material around it... suspended the 'truce' buoy bell we bought for the ceremony (you put it in your living room later and whenever/if ever you fight one rings the bell and it's supposed to remind you of the happiness and why you're together) hanging in the middle. the musicians to the right of that playing away sounding great. the ocean so peaceful with not a roar but a simple offering of slight tide... a gentle rush. our friends and family in the crowd, our closest lined up beside us dressed kinda close :)

wendy, my friend (who introduced us), performed the ceremony flawlessly. the words written by me and other friend were truly personal and the vows as well. when we put the rings on each other's finger she rang the bell, people blew bubbles and the musicians played. the weather was incredible. it was about to rain... in fact, it did 5 minutes after we were done taking pictures and got in the car! :D the sky was dark blue and purples with white and cornflower... and the lighting was 'magical' for that time of day/year in florida 5:30 in late june... should be really harsh natural lighting because the sun doesn't set until 8:30.

we got to the reception and it stopped raining. the sun came out and we watched it set out on the deck near the ocean. we ate, drank alot and i think, everyone had a phenomenal time. everyone loved the chocolate portrait i did. but, we didn't ceremonially cut the cake (we were too busy)... at one point i looked down a chunk of my face was missing. :P my friend made amazing cupcakes too... completely gourmet awesomeness eg coconut, orange, blah blah...

at one point during the reception, i was outside talking with someone. and i heard the dj playing def leppard's 'pour some sugar on me' and i stoppped my conversation, put up my index finger and said, 'i'll be right back'... went to the dj and instructed him that no boy hair bands should be played here tonight.... please! :D


i have alot more to add to this but i'm getting super long and even i won't want to read that later. :P

much love!!! :D
k